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2007-03-22T22:20:00.000+08:00

21st march 2007:

was super dooper slack again today
B4 my person in-charge(LawrenceLow) came,
me and ElsonChu and QQ were like living in the slacking world
QQ and me were sleeping on the desk while Elson was using the computer to watch anime
It was as if we were paid to slack
lolx...
after slacking, it seems so hard to get back to serious work
but it was so difficult to clinch deals
so me and Elson had to draw to motivate ourselves

drawn by me

drawn by Elson

Elson's 'jia' was nicer and my 'you' was nicer so we combined.lolx

but today was really fun, especially during the later part
B4 we went home, Lawrence treat us to drinks(yippies=>)
and at the table QQ and him were like crapping all kinds of lame shit stuffs
And it was freaking funny
I promise I can laugh my tears out
(but must maintain my xing xiang/composure or not very embarrassing =P)
They even went on to the topic of asking me to intro them Girls (T.T)
but it was really fun when everybody was in a relaxed mood

22nd march 2007:

as seen in the photo above, I was slacking during my working hours again.
(but i do feel guilty after i slack, i really do =P)
another happy day
CandiceChew and EdmundHow came down today and had lunch with me and ElsonChu
After that they came to my work place so i can teach Edmund the ropes
(yeah, Edmund is gonna work with us. happy happy =>)
B4 that, we were doing our dumb Cam Whaming stuffs
so i decided to come out with a b4 and after effect
lolx...enjoy (^__________^)

Before: Idiotics
After: Snow White Angels

Before: Idiotics
After: Drama Actors (OMG,I look like Rudolph the red nose reindeer)

Before: Idiotics
After: Ghost Ambassadors (hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil)

Before: Idiotics
After: Magazines Cover story Models

2007-03-20T11:05:00.000+08:00

silent work grave

I'm all alone in the office now and it is so freaking bored
Stupid ElsonChu dumped me here all alone and went to enjoy his chalet

I'm so poor thing
So i got so bored i started Cam Whaming myself
yes peeps, come see me caught in act slacking during work..!!!
lolx...

anyway i went to dye my hair again
But instead of the pale purple i want, my fringe was blue and the back was maroon purple
And to make it even worst, my hair is so dry like you know the mad scientist with white hair?dono how to spell his name la
lolx...

yeah...i look proud to be slacking =P

2007-03-15T10:22:00.000+08:00

9th march 2007:

after a long break, finally back to berries for work
business was really like shit
but very happy to be able to see steffany
ate alot today
actually plan not to eat after 8pm
God knows when i reached home, there laying in front of me was a plate of uncooked dumplings
so i got tempted to eat again...
bad bad bad

11th march 2007:

boss irene came back from Japan today
bought chocolates for us
so sweet of her...

12th march 2007:

1st day of work at yishun
feel that it is very fun because i get to work with my friends
but feel that the job is kinda hard to adapt at the start
you have to know what to promote and how to promote
and you also have to know the procedures on what to do what the customers are interested
i think all of us were like anyhow doing our job
its like so difficult to do like that
after we finished our work all of us were like "wa lao, so difficult, don't want to do le la. Let's quit la"
lolx...
and there is this guy working with us
his nickname was so cute
he is called QQ because of the initials of his name
so maybe i should ask others to call me YQ?
BLeh...=P

13th march 2007:

2nd day of work at yishun
was actually quite happy cos today there were a few moments where nobody was there to supervise us
so less stress
but LimHsienYew got told off by Lawrence(our person-in-charge) which is so cham(unlucky)
cos HY didnt manage to close as much deals as us
and i was like super lucky cos got 1 policeman and a few other peeps help me sign up the package
the policeman was like so damn steady loz
i didn't even have to talk much and he just say: "ok loz. u just fax me the documents and i just sign loz"
if i get peeps like that everyday it will be so damn great
but sad sad sad
think ChongTeckMeng and HY wana quit le
so in the end left me and ElsonChu nia
so so so sad

2007-03-09T12:08:00.000+08:00

6th march 2007:

got my posting results which is so sucky
put all the tourism choices already but not even 1 was chosen
so had to go do appeal thingy
initially thought that by going directly to the poly will have a higher chances of entering the course i want but it ain't so
so me and ElsonChu made 1 wasted trip to SP as the person said that appealing online is the same as coming down to appeal(T.T)
but at least we were able to get some of our doubts clear by asking the person personally
then we went to eat at their Mac(yippies=>)

my secret fries-dipping sauce (is it a secret?)

after eating, went to meet LaiKeXin, LimHsienYew and LimHsienEn
but reaching there shortly, Kx had to go le
so after she was gone, the four of us entertain ourselves with super freaking cold lame jokes
i promise i almost freeze to death=P

7th march 2007:

went to job interview with ElsonChu, LimHsienYew, ChongTeckMeng, IssacNg n Faireeuzul
the interview was at a person's house and the house was like so eerie
thank goodness we came in 1 big group
while waiting for the person-in-charge to come, all of us were making wild guesses that we were going to be kidnapped
and Issac was so freaking comical
he even called and tell that sum1 that if he didnt call back once the interview was over must straight call 999
and when he found a masking tape on the floor, he even scared us saying that the 'kidnappers' even had masking tapes ready(T.T)

in the end there turn out to be no kidnaps or what so ever (smiles or frowns?)
and while the person was briefing us on what we had to do
all of us turn into a dazed mode
not even 1 of us actually know what he was talking at all
but i think for money sake we are still going to do the job

after that went eat vegetarian meal which is freaking delicious
then went back Causeway Point(cwp) and LHY treat us to 'daytona' at the arcade
i lost all 4 rounds(i sucks at games=.=')
and LHY almost lost his hp too
thank goodness he found it in the end

I'm so bad to make fun of the cute baby in the pic =P

2007-03-05T20:35:00.000+08:00

woke up early in the morn and went jogging with CandiceChew
and the weather is so freaking hot tt i almost melt while running
after running, the both of us when to eat Mac
while walking there, the both of us were like discussing about forming a band
and we got so excited about the idea=P
and even went on bout composing our own songs
but so far other then the both of us, we still need another 2 more members
hopefully a guitarist and keyboardist
any1 interested do contact us ^_^
conditions are members have to be sincere about the idea
and able to handle the craps from the both of us
but be warn we both haf no experience
lolx...

at Mac,
we were eating as if we haven't ate for years
thank goodness nobody saw the way we eat

after that we went to shop for my stuffs in our stinko clothes
saw MindyChang, JaclynAng, SteffanieHo, AudreyYee
SteffanieHo and AudreyYee look as if they were zombies tt just jumped out of the grave
lolx...
after that head that to vista point to do my facial
and it so weird going ther in my PE tees and shorts
but anw saw lots of juniors but they didn't give much of a heck to me either
when i reached ther i realised my mama cancelled the appoinment
haiz...made me waste 1 trip (T.T)
anw on the way home i saw LaiZhaoXiu
and her nose kena sun burnt and i was like going HAHAHA
but when i reach home, i notice my nose was a little red too
probably kena sun burnt too??
lolx...so much for laughing at others

Me and JiroWang

2007-03-05T01:45:00.000+08:00

4th march 2007:

went for work in the afternoon
today was like super quiet
as if everybody so guai, all stay home
so me, steff and irene's sis were crapping out all kinds of silly jokes
and irene's sis was like so bian tai(pervert), talking all the dirty stuffs
but she sure is a joker

one thing i notice during work
i'm pregnant...!!!
think is like 2 mths...??
and it looks like 4 mths old after i eat(T.T)
lolx...
i think i really need to do some jogging to abort the baby

2007-03-04T00:57:00.000+08:00

hi hi hi...
though kinda late to say now but happy March month to everybody

one of my proudest accomplishment during this period of time is watching finish 'Samurai X' movie and almost all 'Hana Kimi' episodes on YOUTUBE

short amv on 'Samurai X'

'Samurai X' ending was so so saddening
my tears couldn't stop fallin while watching it
though it is a little bloody, it is still a must watch
but it would be easier to understand if you watch the tv episodes ones 1st

'Hana Kimi' was also not bad
i tin fall in love with Jiro WangDongCheng while watching the show
so i'm like gonna fly to Taiwan to see him??
lolx...
hopefully though
i'm like so super crazy to go taiwan and see all my favourite superstars

i also found out bout the superstars blog and i saw Show LuoZhiXiang's blog and he is like so so super cute
but too bad they don't have Jiro's

2007-02-25T20:06:00.000+08:00

23rd feb 2007:

i'm so gonna be fat fat fat
guess i had like 5 meals today?
i'm the next Norbit's wife =>

work up super early in the morn to meet TriciaChong
den had big breakfast wif her
after that went home and had a short rest
soon my dad came and drove me and NigelTan to M'sia
had prata there and kinda shop a little
so many freak shops have not opened yet due to CNY
and dad suddenly had to go off due to his work
before that we went for a car wash
they had something called snow wash where they spray soap foam on the car which was so cool
and think cause there was not much business so there were like 6 persons cleaning 1 car

i was in the car watching all these happening =>

upon reaching home, rest for a short while then went out again
this time went to meet GohSuZhuang for movie
its so freaking long since i've seen her
then went to mac to eat again
after that GohPanYing and LaiZhaoXiu joined us
we watched 'just follow law'
the show was not bad
worth watching=>

after the movie, i ate again
this time round is sushi
maybe i really should go join a food contest?
lolx

2007-02-22T21:41:00.000+08:00

damn it...
finally logged onto my account
had so much prob cos of my dono wat stupid password thingy
nvm...
shall not let it bother my blogging spirit

9th feb 2007:

freaking long awaited day finally arrived
the RESULTS DAY..!!!
scary huh...
but when we reached ther we saw the top 10 chart thingy
and me n sum of my frenz were not inside the list though
so i cracked a joke sayin maybe we were in the top 20 but not top 10
lame joke(i know)
so we had our 'last supper' b4 going to the hall to receive our results
anw we didnt get our results straight when we reached the hall
they had dono what crap talkings bout our results
make all of us so freaking nervous
my hand was breaking out in cold sweat then

finally all the crap was over and we were allowed to get our results
when it was my turn the 1st thing i was told was
'u still owe the school school fees'
and i was like:'wts..give me my results slip 1st man'
when i did receive it i promise my heart skipped a beat
well shall not go into the details how much i fare
not to bad but not very good either
am in the borderline kind
but still kinda a little disappointed

anw guess the next freaking thing tt happened...
i lost my whole result thingy
dono how i lose it though
it seems as if it just disappear into the thin air
aft finding for what seems like hours still could not find it
so had to ask the teacher to photocopy my sch copy result slip for me

i was so pissed by the whole damn thing tt my mood was so dampened
then 1 angelic call came in through my hp
'hey gab, u are so careless. u dropped ur result slip and it is now with me'
gosh...when i heard it i promise i could go round whacking peeps
make me find till like crazy
nvm...at least it wasn't lost though

becoz of this stupid result thingy i was late for work
and irene was like a little pissed i didnt bring clothes to change
so she lend me her jacket
anw i n steff had kfc to so called celebrate my taking of results
she tot i wouldn't come for work anymore cos my results was like shit
hahxhahx
worst still...
as i was wearing my uniform underneath the jacket
one customer asked whether me n steff was daughter and mother
steff was like so 'insulted' till she couldn'y speak for herself properly
hahxhahx

14th feb 2007:

they say on valentine's day, it is a day to celebrate for lovers
but a day for singles to gloom
anw, i dont feel the gloom though
so as usual i was late for work agn
but luckily i got ready valentine's gift for irene n steff
so when i gave the present to irene, tink she cant bear to say me or whatever
hahxhahx
(i'm such a smart alex)
but i lost a bet to steff
so i owe her 1 meal
we bet whether boss irene would go off earlier or not
and i lost
hahxhahx
but dont mind treating steff though
cos she will b working for like a mth den she will be leaving
so sad...(T.T)
i will miss her a lot =>

18-20th feb 2007:

so went the 3 days of horror
eat slp and watch tv on the 1st 2 days of chinese lunar new year
only went visiting on the last day
i promise 1 day of visiting was enough to kill me
all i did was eat and watch tv which i can do it perfectly fine at home
just that this time i was in prettier clothes and more ladylike sitting postures
so glad the 3 days of horror were finally over

21st feb 2007:

went LimHsienYew's bbq today
b4 that went to singapore polytechnic(sp) to do my appeal thingy
had a nice chat wif the staff there though
aft that me and ElsonChu went to their mac to eat
and it was the 1st time i ate at the mac there
so maybe i shud celebrate this day of every year at this place
hahxhahx
i'm being so lame

had fun at HsienYew bbq
ate a lot and play cards till my eyes were blurry
was lucky to catch the last bus home=>

2007-02-08T01:09:00.000+08:00

7th feb 2007:

went to work late for 15mins like i owaes use to
n kinda got told off a little by boss irene
then she went on bout my workin attitude
n compared me wif a previous salesgirl she employed b4
n aft all that shit she said,'i'm not trying to compare you n her.jux telling you to let you know'
and this obviously meant tt she had the thought to compare me wif that girl
at 1st was like super buai song(not happy) wif her comments
i mean what you expect fr a 16t yr old kid like me
and she should probably see how hard her clothes are to sell
so freaking damn expensive loz
haiz...

but after thinking for awhile
i dont have the right to be angry though
she is the boss so she can have the say
and maybe i'm really slacking
aiya...whatever la
anyway i dont think i will want to stay long at this job
i rather go work for auntie wendy and uncle michael where i feel happier

anyway went home with fiona and ai wen
going home with them is like super fun..
we were laughing bout sleeping poses and lots of super lame-mo stuffs
i almost laughed till my tears burst out
hahxhahx
at least something to lighten my mood for the day

2007-02-07T02:49:00.000+08:00

5th feb 2007:

woke up in the morn n saw CandiceChew's msg
stupid can wanna whack me cos i nv tell her i got a blog
lolx...
but anw if you are reading this can, i've got something to tell you...
CANDICE SUX...!!!
hahxhahx
anw went to help uncle michael today
he was so sick
so poor thing
anw i ran the whole shop today n i promised i almost die
my bladder was like bursting
lolx...oopsies...i know a girl shoudnt talk like that
but who care=P
i think i should wear pampers the next time i go there work alone
hahxhahx
but i promise workin there is so much better then at berries
less stressful and more sales
though their salary is lesser
why does money make the world go round...=.=?

6th feb 2007:

went to work late
was actually supposed to report at 4pm but instead reach there at 5pm
haiz...
my results coming out soon too(on 9th feb)
actually wanna take that day off but boss irene ask me report work at 5pm tt day
cos she need to go off early to fetch her baby
haiz...
well...maybe i will get gd retribution for helping her?
like better result?
hahxhahx...i think i'm dreaming too much
anw very happy to finally get my sling/handbag=>

2007-02-01T12:41:00.000+08:00

18th jan 2007:

the 1st time i haf my own personal account n card
so hapi
oso my 1st time using my own card for NETs

after doing my bank thingy,went shopping wif OngJiaMin
bought super lots of stuff
actually TriciaChong oso coming wif me de
but in the end she couldnt make it
so oni me, JM n her friend shop together
but i really did enjoy myself greatly
been so long since i shop like crazy
hahxhahx

23rd dec 2007:

went to chinatown work 2day
the place changed so so much
it became quite crampy though
did alot of packing work today
and to make it worst i was having a stupid running nose
i couldnt find tissue at all
but thank God there was a tissue roll for me to use all i want

one memorable incident today was the flying umbrella
the wind blew so strong n our big umbrella use to shield us fr the rain n sun suddenly flew
it hit one of our lady customer(she was wif her child)
the customer got so fed up she threw our clothes which was in her hands onto the floor
and also told us off
but all we could do was say sorry
but i feel that i was even feeling any bit of sorry for her
i know she is angry because the umbrella almost hit her child
but why wasnt i being hit since i was serving her?
why muz the umbrella fly up oni when i went inside the shop to take something for her?
so i came to the conclusion that muz be her retribution
kkz...i'm so evil
lolz

29th dec 2007:

went speed shopping with TriciaChong again cos tricia couldnt stay out too long
speed shopping is really tough kkz
u have to decide whether you want to buy stuff or not in a short time
and my head was like hurting a little after all the shopping
i bought the used t-shirt i always wanted(so happy=>)
den i bought this limited edition lacoste shoe
my heart felt so happy yet painful(cant bear wif the money)
thank God tricia didnt get told off when she reached home

30th dec 2007:

went ah ma house to eat b4 going 4 work
when i reach there, Dad wasnt there yet
so ah ma and kuku chit chat with me bout my parent's prob
after the chit chat,
i feel like crying
i feel like doing something to help mend their prob
but i dono what
i love the both of them so much but bringing out the issue will just discomfort them
kuku oso showed me the photo of the other gal
she is like super poor thing now
but thank God she is now on the recovery track

when i went to work,
i couldnt concentrate n my eye was giving problems
finally i could go hm
when i reach hm, i told seanie bout what i was told n he was like 'ya. i alredy knew bout it'
then i end the conversation with 'prayer helps'
and when seanie heard it he was like starting to demoralize me
saying that i should not consider myself christian as i dont go church, etc...
in my heart i feel like bashing him up
so does it mean if a person wants to be a christian, he believed in God but is not allowed to go church is not a christian?
whatever it is, but since john 3:16 says that:
'For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life'
i'm saved then
i dont mind not being considered a christian
but as long as i believe in God, i'm saved

2007-01-17T02:39:00.000+08:00

was browsing my photos
saw some very memorable de so decided to post em
--------------------------------------------------

graduation day:

guys in our class nv grows up=P

hahxhahx...kuku teck meng^.^

my signature on kuku teck meng's shirt=>

my cute ah ji n ah ma
lolx...miss em like so so so much

jin xian's b.dae:

birthday boy's cake..very de delicious=>

2007-01-17T01:58:00.000+08:00

i'm so freaking pissed now all because of jon's fault
he is like super weirdo wif a shito attitude..?!
me n JM was like in a conversation wif him on msn
n the both of us were usin the same nick n dp(display pic)
kinda of like trying to confuse him
sounds fun rite
but tt big weirdo jux spoil it all
he left the conversation

so i open another conversation wif him n asked him wats wrong
i admit i'm wrong to kip pestering him, askin him wats wrong
but he freaking shit could haf said nicely he wish to kip to himself
or he don feel like saying it nw or any other beta ways to silence me
instead of asking me to shut up rite?
den i tin he blocked me aft tt
i felt like super hurt..?!
i promise i could jux gif him a 5 finger print on his face if he ever did tt to me face to face

i jux cant understand wat is the freakin prob wif his toot attitude
this pissed me so much tt rite nw i'm stuffing myself wif food
i'm so gonna get fat because of a weirdo T.T
anw aft tt i changed my nick n friends came pouring in wif concern
thx God i haf other gd frenz
even chest came n asked if i was ok
so buzz off jon
if not a word of sorry fr u then tt is it for us>.<

13th jan 2007:

was late for work at berries today agn
went wif TriciaChong to shop at fareast
saw lots of stuffs but didnt haf the time n money to shop
felt pretty bad to be late for work oso
cos surely steff will feel irritated by my late attitude?!
(who wouldnt't? i'm like gonna get my retribution sooner or later)
but anw brought tricia to my shop oso
then she bought a top fr me
so sweet of her=>

den aft work went to meet OngJiaMin at novena
acc her to yishun to pay sum1 undeserved money
felt so unjust for her
but couldnt do anytin though
then went cwp to eat bk
den JM start cam whaming herself wif my hp
she couldnt take a nice one so took the onion rings to 'console' herself

15th jan 2007:

finally my off day for once
hahxhahx=>
went to CandiceChew's hse in the afternoon den received the b.dae present fr her, LaiZhaoXiu n EdmundHow
super like it alot
i msg xiu to reserved the green color one oso=P

den saw can's electric drum set
its like quite small n very cute
lolx..den ate noodles can's maid cooked for me
can's maid noodles is like the best man=P
den can played the piano for me
as she was playing i suddenly tot to myself:
'if i am finding a bf, it b like super nice if he noe how to play the piano too. den i get free performance every now n then'
lolx...guess i'm dreaming too much?
aft tt can went sch for co
so the both of us parted
then i went watson n spent my $ buying stuffs
i'm such a spendthrift=P

2007-01-12T10:52:00.000+08:00

for the last three days i've been working at chinatown
but business aint good at all
cos it had been raining for the past 3 days
and yesterday was the worst cos the rain jux kept pouring without stoppin

9th dec 2007:

1st day of work wif abigail
had a tough time opening the shop
den gt 1 stupid place leaking water den canot display the clothes
so had to move the clothes to display at another place
luckily the rain was not really very big
or not i will haf even more problem opening the store
halfway thru saw steffany
den chit chat awhile b4 she went off to bugis to work
in the afternoon when abigail came i was so relieved
finally some1 to acc me=>

when it was the closing of the shop
abigail's family came to fetch her
her dad is like so comical sia=P
and oh ya
i saw sum1 wearing black dickies skirt
i didnt noe dickies also got skirt
i'm gona get 1 anyway=P

and the rain today dirtied my poor slippers

10th dec 2007:

i really hate indian customers..!!
not trying to be racist or anything
maybe it only happens at my workin area ther
ther is one indian guy who is dressed so smartly
n he still can bargain the price till so low=.=
but i gaf him anw because biz was nt gd today either
i think i'm really becomin dumber
then ther is another two indian lady who tried on the cardigans
then she left the cardigan one side n went off without even a thanks
argh..!!!
then gt 1 guy came
dono if he was a malay or indian
he wanted to buy 2 kido games fr us
n he bargained the 2 for 9 bucks
i promise my teeth almos dropped to the ground
he bargained till so ridiculous
it's like we are selling one for 8 bucks n he can bargin for 2 at 9 bucks
actuali abigail wanted to give him for 1 at 5 bucks
but i was like no way, not to this kind of ---- guy
so he left n went to disturb other shops
i've nv met a guy as idiotic as him

11th dec 2007:

last day of my 3 days workin at chinatown
saw steffany agn
did i say she send me 1 very comical msg?
lolz...she is like so cute loz
biz real bad today
the rain was pouring super heavy
so we closed the shop early
but we were still the last shop to close
den in the mist there was an electric short
so we packed the shop in the dark
but when we finished packin we still cant go off cos we haven do the cashier thingy
n we haf to wait till the electricity come back den can do
den auntie linda called me to go check out the electric circuit box
(i had to do it cos all the shops except ours had closed le)
so i haf to walk down the dark lane alone which is so scary
n when i open the box i was so scare a mouse would jump on me or wat
but anw at least i found out sumtin new today
i know wher to go n what to do when ther is an electric cut le

2007-01-07T10:28:00.000+08:00

4th jan 2007:

omg...guess who i saw in the train on my way to work?

it was cutie guy Z
geez...i was so super shock to c him
he saw me also anw n he was like also staring at me
at 1st i couldnt rmb where i had seen him b4
but i promise my heart skipped a beat when i rmb
but he did say hi to me either
n i was too shy to say too
cos he look kinda diffe n i was afraid mayb i was seeing tins?
dono la...but i was really sad i didnt go try say hi to him loz
den jm ask me go frenster tok 2 him n ask him out
its like as if i have the guts to=.=
oh my...i feel so lousy inside me
why didnt i go say hi(T.T)

5th jan 2007:

actually didnt wana go work today at all
so fake mensural(dono how to spell la) cramp
but boss irene still ask if i could down later to hlp
coz she needed to go hm to take her baby
so sad sad still haf to goT.T
anw it was also the 1st time i work wif steffany la
feel that she not bad
she also have a comical personality
enjoy working wif her den boss irene=P
mayb its cos she is not the boss
but it was quite fun working wif her
she also preach to me lots of stuff la
like muz date a guy who can support you all this
lolx

6th jan 2007:

today also work wif steffany
and i managed to hit my $200 target
heh heh=P
den aft work JM came n find me
told me she had a bad day
lolx
n she also told me bout potato n her bf wan long forgotten money fr her
but they are like demanding fr her more den she shud return?
nt very sure bt i'm gona side JM coz potato is such a bitch
den aft tt took some dumb dumb pics wif JM on the train
all the peeps in the train muz b thinking we are nuts

den JM stopped 1 stop b4 me
den aft tt she called me to say she saw her ex
lolx...
real bad day 4 her sia

2007-01-02T00:58:00.000+08:00

31st dec 2006:

last day workin at queenstown
sad sad=(
gonna miss all the aunties so so so much
den only today boss william ask me whether i wana continue working T.T
now den ask loz
only when i accept berries le den he ask
what the...
anyway tml starting berries
also haf 2 go collect my pay fr auntie wendy

1st jan 2007 :

1st day at berries
b4 tt when shopping wif mama at cwp
she could jux make my blood burst out of my vessels
she kept sayin my face this my face that de
den wan me go facial n dono eat what stupid beauty product
so i told her beauty on the outside is not everything loz
but she kept insisting face is super dooper impt
i noe face is impt la
but i hapi wif how i look le ma
my mama thinking is so orh biang loz T.T
i prefer high iq beta=P

den aft tt went 2 c auntie wendy
den saw uncle michael oso
tot he would show me black face 4 nt workin 4 him anymor
but instead he still joke wif me
so i said sori 2 him
den he say nvm, jux use my pay treat him eat 1 exp meal can leT.T
but i rali feel very bad
i promise i will buy him sumtin as a token of appreciation

den went berries work le
berries still haf 2 do house keepin siaT.T
den haf to clean tis clean tt de
so troublesome
sumor boss irene still gif me target loz
she say if the day i work i don sell mor den $200 den my pay per hr will b lesser
WTS loz T.T
so stressful sia
kinda regretted leaving uncle michael le=(
bt luckily i manage 2 hit la
den aft work i was crossing the road 2 mrt den saw JM
so u turn back n chat wif her 4 a while
den i realise i lost my hp pouch
inside still got my spare battery loz
dono which damn bastard pick up (>.<)!!
so suay sia

okies la
though 2day nt very gd
bt at least sum1 msg me hapi new yr
hahxhahx
hopefully tml work can hit target oso
may God bless me=>

2006-12-30T07:00:00.000+08:00

lolx...
when to take the iq test
then score like 112 lidat onli..(T.T)
so the web place me under the category of extremely brilliant
hahxhahx
not very bad i guess?
but chiyang got like 122, 10 more than me=.=
then they place him under bright mastermind
so clever loz
so jealous...hahx
but i gonna beat him
cos the test muz do maths ma
den summor got chim eng words
so i of coz get lower den him
his eng knowlegde is so much beta den mine
and i hate maths also
hahxhahx

2006-12-30T05:46:00.000+08:00

what i do best is sleep
but finally the day come tt i haf a sleepless nite
jux couldnt slp
so much things bombarding my mind

the 1st n the most brain sucking power onez:

after work went wif JM to hav supper
den we missed the last train hm
so i called D n asked if he could fetch us hm
n he said he was wif a fren
n how stupid was i to think tt his fren was a maleT.T
so the car came n when i saw it was a female i was like kinda surprised?
but i tot to myself tt probably it rali was jux a norm fren
den D is probably jux sending her hm or wateva
so i didnt rali gif much of a damn
until i saw her touching D's hand
i was like WTS
but i couldnt do anything also
in my mind i was praying:
Lord pls let this be my imagination.
and to think jm is also there to witness this thing
imagine how i would haf felt?
thank goodness JM was a close fren of mine
and she alredy knew my probs
so aft JM left
i was like WTS
all left alone wif D n a bitch
but anw, to my surprise or horror,
i actuali spoke to her
i asked where she was fr n guess what?
she is a MIC(made in china)?!!!
so i was like don wonder the slutty look of hers
n D was like kinda stunned i actuali spoke to her
anw aft JM left i answered D questions sloppily
think he noticed it?
well he beta cos i rali m kinda pissed
aft i spoke to the bitch, she didnt hold on to D's hand anymor
den finally time for me to get out of the car
i said bye sloppily n jux turn my back on them
i know i shouldnt, but i told my bros bout it anw
n NigelTan was quite pissed by it
dono bout seanie but though he didnt haf much of a n emotion shown
but think deep down he is kinda pissed oso?

dono y but i rali hope there is a logic explanation behind all this
to tell me all this is not real?
perhaps it is like for some kind or work purposes or wat
den D had to put up wif her
n it is not him who really wants all this shit?
i really hope so
Lord, i pray for your mercy on my weak heart

the 2nd most brain power draining onez:

uncle michael came to know that i was gona work part time at berries
so he said that i couldnt take both because both are at bugis
den there might be high probability conflicts in the future
i understand his actions
then he offer to let me work 6 days per wk
while berries only let me do let 4 days per wk on normal occassions
well...i really wish to continue working 4 uncle
but after heeding so many advices, everybody thinks i should go 4 berries
probably because their pay is a little higher
but mama n JM al say this world is realistic de
the one which pays more wins
den Dad also say the uncle is probably saying all the cons of working at berries to make me stay
mint also advice me work at berries
n JM alredy said the boss at berries like me alot
n she wont rali ill treat her surbodinates

so i know my last decision will be berries
but what i worry is how to tell it to uncle michael
haiz...though the pay is low but i rali enjoyed working wif uncle they all
somemore auntie wendy and linda also very good towards me
just when i'm getting warm up wif em i had to leave
i promise there will be guilt in me for leaving them
but i couldnt turn down berries also since i alredy promised em
and it is like the boss had a new born kid to take care of
haiz...
mama told me not to think to much and just thicken my skin to tell em my decision
i know tt the only way but the guilt in my heart just couldnt stop bothering me
anw mint suggest i get ready some gifts of appreciation so that i wont feel so guilty
well i guess i will take that
i really wanna thank them for this period of time
esp uncle michael and linda for all that they had taught me
(anw i told nigel one of the reasons i cant bear to leave em is cos i m like a ungrateful bastard to leave lidat after all they had taught me. but nigel say it is only right for them to teach me cause they need me to bring in $ for them. well...tt is kinda true though)

the 3rd onez:

i went to read jn blog n saw that she like my gift
n i m like happy happy=>
but then tin she feels kinda lost n having grudges against herself for all that happened?
hope she don feel that way
if jn you are reading this,
just want you to know that
I STILL LOVE YOU LOTS LOTS
AND WE ARE STILL FRIENDS IN MY HEART NO MATTER WHAT=>
promise i will talk to you nxt time we mt up kkz
so do take care=)

hahx...
feel a little better after letting things out
suddenly miss the days when me, OngJiaMin, SharonNian n IvyMonique hang out
so free and easy and Crazy
hahxhahx
miss the days when i go wham jn hse oso
hahxhahx=P

2006-12-29T11:27:00.000+08:00

if only humans don haf to sleep, eat, bath, clean their bowels
and still be alright
wont we haf even much more free time?
then i can go work in the morn
and go out to play in the night
so cool rite?

if only humans won haf acne problems too
then i can heck care bout my face
and i don need to spent time to look after my pimps
lolx...
i guess i'm dreaming too much

28th dec 2006:

started my kiddy rides work ytd
was pretty fun though
not as bad as i tot
all i had to do is to wait for ppl to ride the thingy
and the thingy was so different from what i expected
b4 i went there i thought it was like motor cars for the kids to ride
but it turn out to be some giantic stuff toys which you can ride on
it so damn cute loz
heard that this type of kiddy ride thingy is still new in s'pore

anw i went to united square to work
and tt shopping centre had so much of kido stuff
lolx...
and the floor i was working on has all these display which you can play
they haf these thingy wher you hit em and the animals sound will come out

so cool rite
i even saw some kids playing wrestling wif the display
hahxhahx
and the person in charge of me was rina
she turn out differently as i tot oso
i tot she would have those serious english person look
because her eng was not bad
but instead she was very friendly
and look more like those chinese person look

part of my job is to push the 'car' back to the starting point if it stops somewhere else
because it is a shopping centre
so peeps will look at me when i was pushing it
and it is like kinda malu
but still haf to do my job though
at least i m having more biz den the other shop

den there was this muslim lady in one of the shops
she is so freaking nice
b4 she went home
she said to me that if nxt time we want, we can safe put our valuables in her shop
i told rina and she said:'wah..so nice ar she?!'
hahxhahx
nice day for my 1st day at work

2006-12-26T12:17:00.000+08:00

its raining outside now
and it is so dampening my mood
haiz...
how i wish i dont have to work later=(

anw...2 believe or not to believe
seanie gave me christmas present=>

and it was something i wanted to buy de
though not exactly the same
but at least kinda looks like it
hahxhahx
happy happy=P

24th dec 2006:

muz 1st sing b.dae song to NigelTan

happy birthday to you~
happy birthday to you~
happy birthday to NIGEL
happy birthday to you~!!

lolx...
quite a handful of dec babies to wish this year

had shark's fin today=P

boss william treat de
so good rite?
hahxhahx
i tin i will miz this place so much once i leave
all the aunties
and esp wat me n mindy usu eat
MIXED VEGETABLES RICE
hahxhahx

after work dad drove me and nigel to chong pang for dinner
while eating, my mum called
i almost had indigestion talking to her
she actually forgot to bring her keys!!!
and its like not her 1st time
so she expect me to go home and open the gates for her
and i still have to go orchard to meet OngJiaMin later lozT.T
so super troublesome
but thank God my dad can drive me

went home open the gates and change my clothes oso
so sad to leave my mama at home alone though
went somerset meet OngJiaMin and ElsonChu
den walk to cineleisure to meet JM fren, anson n his cousin
anw bought this cute hairband
too bad they don have it in orange color

anw some stranger in the crowd saw me wearing it and say act cuteT.T
and i was like three strokes down my face
so does it mean all those ppl wearing all the christmas thingy on their head are trying to act cute??
stupid comment by stupid peeps
and i m so dumb to care bout these kind of dumb comments

banglas hu went orchard 2day are so in for it
not 1 single of em was spared from the spray can
they were all sprayed
whether they are innocent or not
probably because of the incident last year where a girl was molest by a few banglas
hahxhahx...poor souls...God bless em

anw i couldnt ton as i had to work the nxt day
so had to catch the train hm
then we played poker on the train
den in the train saw tis tico pek
he kept trying wana touch his galfren(i tin is a philipino)
and the gal kept pushing him away
hahxhahx
so damn comical loz
and the tico pek still so thicked skinned loz
we all watching him n he still won paisenT.T

JM didnt want to go hm early so we went sumwher near marsiling mrt to sit and play poker
den saw 1 taxi driver chasing aft a indian guy for nt payin the taxi fare
lolx...
den 1 resident uncle who is keeping a lookout for drugs peeps approached us
told us not to stay there 2 long cos got alot of dangerous peeps around

so JM, Elson n me went 2 the coffee shop downstairs my hse to hav their supper
i had to treat emT.T
dey actually wanted to take cab hm
but ened up in my hse to wait 4 e 1st bus(cant bare to waste $)
and i had to clean up my hoouse to giv em a place to rest=.=
i actually wanted to slp but they kept talkin to me
make me canot slp until finally elson left 1st
SO SORRY ELSON FOR NOT OPENING THE DOOR FOR YOU
hahxhahx

25th dec 2006:

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEEPS!!!
though its christmas i still had to work
but anw business at chinatown was quite good though
i promise i could had faint during work
i was so damn tired
i only had like 4hrs of slp?
thank goodness when it was finally all over

aft work when hm to have dinner wif NigelTan n mama
also bought coloured contact lens
actuali mama wanted me to buy 1 whole yr of supply de(12 pairs)
but i was like so many..?!
better not loz
so in the end bought 3 pairs only

anw JN msg me merry christmas
hahxhahx
happy happy=P

------------------------------------------------

to M:

WTS...
i nv tot u did it
how could you?
why are you so toot?
in the past u used to say her toot
now look who is the real toot?
i still cant believe my ears
u cause the great sense of disappointment in me
how could you be so implusive?
but no matter what...
jux know i am still here for you

2006-12-24T07:56:00.000+08:00

today post would be long
cos haven been blogging last few days
couldnt blog cos my bro was hogging the comp
he said i was wasting time doing this kind of blogging stuffs
(but if he feels so why does he still come read my blog...dumb rite?)
so does it mean all bloggers are time wasters?
kkz...whatever

19th dec 2006:

MindyChang and TriciaChong bought me shoes as my b.dae present
yipees=>
they are such nice souls

den after work my Dad brought me, SeanTan n his gf to watch 'eragon'

i felt that the show was quite cool

but my Dad n seanie said it was a lame show(T.T)
so spoiler
oh ya...my Dad brought me to eat jap food b4 the show started
the octopus sashimi was so nice^.^

20th dec 2006:

my Dad surprised me by suddenly popin out at my queenstown workplace
then he took me and SeanTan to dinner wif uncle's peter car
it had been like super long since i sat at the front seat=P

den went to fetch uncle peter and his friends
uncle peter was kinda drunk and the way he talk to my dad was so cute and funny=P
Dad was suppose to drop us at marina mrt station but he took us to the wrong place
hahxhahx
thank goodness it turn out right in the end

anw
i know i haf short legsT.T
but my Dad and seanie were like walking as if rushing to recairnate?
so i was like so far behind them
i mean why walk so fast after dinner
i will get gastric pain de kkz

21th dec 2006:

went to chinatown to work today
after work i took the mrt home
when i was at dohty ghuat(dono how to spell la) changing to the north-south line
everybody was like rushing up the escalator
then there was this lady
she used her boobs and pushed me aside to squeeze pass me
and i was like WTS??
i didnt noe big boobies can used their established natural assets as weaponsT.T

22th dec 2006:

went to watch death note 2 wif NigelTan, SeanTan n Dad 2day
b4 tt i send MindyChang to admiralty mrt station
in the train there was this indian guy sitting nxt to me
i dono if he was fat or big size
but he kept like leaning to me
and i was like super uncomfortable
so i ask mindy to move to the seat nxt 2 her so i can move 1seat away fr the guy
when i move away, the guy was open his eyes big big as if he was too shock to say anything
what a big weirdo

anyway the death note show was nice
but the main character die in the end
so sad....=(
but anyway the female character was very cute

and oh ya
have to sing two b.dae songs to EdmundHow and TriciaChong

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to EDMUND
happy birthday to you~!!!

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to TRICIA
happy birthday to you~!!!

23th dec 2006:

LimJieNing party is today but too bad i couldnt attend
had to work=(
actualli the boss ask me go to the marina sq outlet today
n i was likt wts
no way man
but i couldnt turn down the offer osoT.T
but thank goodness
in the end don need go le
so lucky man=P
anw boss william treat us japanese pizza today
yum yum=)

2006-12-19T09:47:00.000+08:00

my b.dae is finally over
and i really had alot of fun
thank you guys, all hu had made it enjoyable for me

17th dec 2006:

Dad meet me after my work
i told him i wanted to buy a cheap pair of shoe as my golden bling bling shoe were spoil
rainwater was slippin thru the hole in my shoe
and my feet were like so freaking stinko cos of the rainwater
so he took me to OG and bought me tis pair of comfy slippers
which is like so over my budget

erm i nt sure if its call slippers anw
hahxhahx
though it look kinda orh biang(old fashion)
but it really very very comfy
probable gonna share it wif my mama
c her like very poor tin everytime wear those lousy n cheapo shoes
which like get wore out in no time
and so uncomfortable

when trying it on,
the salesgirl actually wanted to bend down and help me wear
and i was: no no no. don do it
i quickly took the shoe of her hands and try it myself
she muz be thinking my actions are like so weird
well she shud thank me man
imagine she bend down and smell my 'hong kong' feet
she will just faint on the spot
hahxhahx
kkz...i am being too exaggerating

aft dinner, me n my Dad walked past BATA n my dad made a lame joke
i told him we shud hav went bata to buy instead
they have cheaper shoes
guess what my Dad said
'why u wana buy Buy And Throw Away shoes?'
my Dad is so humorous rite?
hahxhahx
i told CandiceChew the joke
and it took a few minutes for her to understand it
she is so S-L-O-W
hahxhahx

aft tt went to my ah ma hse to take my the b.dae present my Dad bought for me
den part wif my Dad n went cwp
initially wanted to catch the last show
but dono what's wrong
when i reach there the whole cinema was like close alredy
so me n chest was like: gaga. what the hell...?!
and i was like so agitated
make me rush down for nth(T.T)
so we walk around and den reach chest hm den i took the bus hm
anw chest sang hapi b.dae song to me(yeeps=P)

18th dec 2006:

met up wif CandiceChew, ElsonChu n LaiKeXin
wanted to go eat sakae de but the cwp branch don have lunch buffet
so in the end ended up in pastamania
i treat can n elson and my pocket was like burning a hole(T.T)
but it was worth it
by the end of the meal my stomach was like gonna burst lidat

tt black looking hand is elson's
he can go n live in africa
lolx...

den we walk around n i bought tis winnie the pooh's bottle
which is like so cute loz
actualli i bought it is because there is eeyore in it
hahxhahx

den also saw jon's sis
think she cant recongnise me?
but anw i pretend i didnt c her oso
hahxhahx
was too malu(embarassed)
lolx...i'm so bad
den can left and me kx n elson went to ang mo kio to buy kx's shoes and drop by to say hi to LaiZhaoXiu
(xiu is working at the sportslink outlet in amk)
when we were bout to take the mrt
there was this guy who asked us to donate $
n i told him i alredy donated $5 to his other friend(which is true)
but he still can say 'nvm la. donate again la.'
he even asked which of his friend i donated to
then shout to his friend to ask and confirm
i promise i could just knock his tooth out
so greedy face loz
i know he is trying to make a living
but it is like don have to lidat also rite(T.T)

at sportslink
kx just couldnt made up her mind what shoes to buy
n elson n i were alredy going into dazed mode and she still wasnt finish
anw in the end she also nv buy lah
so lame rite...hahx
anw i gt attracted to this adidas bag which i promise i'm gonna come back for it
actuali xiu wana buy for me de
but i told her nt to
its like quite ex so if she but i will also feel bad to accept it

while watching kx eating,
faezah called me
quite shock though
she told me bout her n'level results and i'm so glad she was able to take o's nxt year
but i felt quite bad too for not smsing her to wish her luck b4 she took her results
anw elson bought eeyore keychains for me=>

den aft tt went novena to eat dinner(or was it supper) wif my Dad
we had japanese steak
the meat came raw n we were suppose to flip and cook it ourselves on the hot plate
so fun sia=P

den went bukit batok to meet jon
gave him his christmas present also
den on the way home it was raining so the floor was slippery
jon almost peng(slip and fall) cos his slippers no more friction
i promise if he rali did i would laugh till my tears burst out

anw elson told me jn asked me if i wana go her church on 23rd
but so sad i had to work tt day
jn also got wish me happy b.dae wor(yeeps=>)
lolx...
still haven pass her her b.dae present till now also
hahxhahx...
tin pass her both her xmas n b.dae present 2gether

well...my b.dae did end well rite?=>
twisters(^.^)V

2006-12-18T09:16:00.000+08:00

i ask chest what if he got a blog and his family members happen to chance upon it
guess what was his reply?
he said he will write more bout depression and make em worry(T.T)
he is so damn cartoon
hahxhahx

anw...
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to Gabrielle
Happy birthday to me ~
hahxhahx
Happy 16th birthday to myself=P

maybe going out later to eat sakae sushi
though i had so wanted to go ther for ages but kinda scare will gain weight again=(
but who cares

got lots of hapi b.dae msg at midnite ytd
so touched(T.T)
let me c...
i think TriciaChong was the 1st to wish me but tt was b4 midnite
so to be exact shud be MindyChang the 1st
hahx=P
kkz...off to check out sakae sushi

2006-12-17T00:10:00.000+08:00

16th dec 2006

kekex...
fun fun 2day
went to work and today's business was nt bad
working wif auntie linda was nt as bad as i tot
she taught me lots of stuffs she learnt thru her life experiences
and it really was a great help to me
she could just be my role model
1 thing i really agree wif her is tt we have to learn to take sufferings
hahxhahx=P

aft work went to wlds evangelical free church day and watch the christmas performance
den me, ms chee and GohPanYing was like so crazy
went around and took photos
hahxhahx
we were so damn comical
esp. chee and py

actuali wan to go watch midnite movie wif ElsonChu, OngJiaMin n chester de
den me n Elson don feel lyk goin suddenly n JM oso cant confirm if she can go
so the whole thing was cancelled
but i promise when i asked chest out i could just hit him rite in the face
he was like so guai lan(trying to make tins difficult)
he wanted me to buy the tickets
saying since i m the one hu asked him out so obviously i am the one hu shud buy
but i don hav enuff cash wif me den loz
and his freaking tone was so freaking shit pissing me off
in my mind i was like thinking wts(what the shit)
nw hav gf den wan to like act dao(big) lidat
i know its my fault anw but could at least give me some face rite=.=
anw i had to say sori in the end for canceling the whole damn thing

i promise i will nv ask him out agn(if possible)
tin he is still angry wif me now??
hu cares anw
he is nt my bf or what anw(though i do still feel kinda bad towards him)
n when i was on the phone wif him
i was like i don mind quarreling wif u and break up our stupid so called friendship
(i noe i am very bad)
but thank God i did not do anything foolish like shouting at him or wat

guess i'm so going nuts over boys
(hello, i can survive without guys so i shud stop thinking bout em)
anw GohPanYing and LaiKeXin gave me my b.dae present 2day
kx even gave my christmas present in advance
actualli tot of unwrapping the present on my actual b.dae
but the present was not wrap so i jux couldnt resist the temptation

cute rite?
hahxhahx
kkz...i'm gona get em christmas present 2...
erm...shud i get for jon 2??
mmm...nt sure sia...
actuali tot of going to bugis st buy the spongebob t-shirt or boxer
but afraid to let auntie wendy and uncle michael c me
mmm...mayb i go peninsular buy instead

anw berries called me and wan me start workin for em on 1st jan
the oni tin i like bout the shop is the pay is 50cent higher
(kkz...i'm pathetic)
but actually i'm quite afraid to work ther
heard JM say the boss kinda use words hurt her indirectly
(but JM say is because the boss initially alredy like me le tt y)
dono la...just have a bad feeling i'm not gonna enjoy the work ther
hope things wont be as bad as i tot

nw tokin wif chest on msn
don feel so agitated le
all doubts clear
he is nt angry wif me n i oso nt angry wif him le
but i still haf 2 treat him(T.T)

kkz...just gotta noe tt my bro read my blog
feels so weird
back off fr my blog kkz big bro(T.T)
anw tml is my b.dae
so big bro if u are readin my blog
get me my present!!!
hahxhahx

2006-12-15T10:39:00.000+08:00

lalala...
so freaking bored now
gonna have to work later
today is auntie linda instead of auntie cindy
should be quite stressful cause auntie linda is super good in sales
so i don think i can slack much

finally the 3rd day i'm gona work at chinatown
i wore skirt to work ytd
though i don have much of a figure but those tico(pervert) indian uncles opposite my shop still cant take their eyes off me
luckily ther is auntie cindy ther so they dare not say anything dirty to me
still cant forget their tico faces
i'm never gonna wear skirt and go ther work
never ever i promise>.< miss MindyChang and all the queentown aunties so much
seems like so long since i have seen em

geez...so sucky...
now my leg is so freaking itchy
cause of all the stupid mosquito bites
argh...

how i wish i can don work and still have more than enough money to spend=.=

2006-12-13T21:50:00.000+08:00

okies...today's post will be super wordy
haven been blogging since last week
been lazy n busy

went to sentosa ytd
couldnt rali say i enjoyed myself alot
but i was really happy being able to c my pals
esp. CandiceChew and EdmundHow

the 3 of us plus andrea went cycling which was super fun as i haven cycle for like what seems like a million years already
anw the 3 of us didn really mix around wif the others
we were in a world of our own...heh=P
aft cycling we went back to the grp and i got water bombed by ZoeNg and xiu
nt sure if i was angry or irritated then
but i sure was agitated by the thought of having to bath myself ther
so freaking troublesome
what was so funny was the 3 of us left 1st but in the end we met into the group agn
probably cos of my fault
we alighted at the wrong stop and got lost in sentosa
it would had been fun though if not for can's mum
the later we reach can's hse the more agitated can's mum will be

the bus ride to can's hse was very enjoyable i promise
(cant swear.heard tt christian arent suppose to swear)
we were chatting bout so freakin lots of stuffs
though we haven seen each other for like less den a mth
but there was already a hill of stuffs to talk bout

when we reached can's hse the atmosphere was so weird
probably becoz of the suppressed anger of can's mum
it was so scary=.=
but i promise her maid food was delicious
how i wish i can go her hse everyday to eat her maid's cooking
aft tt the 3 of us veiwed celeste blog n had a great luff among ourselves
esp at the video she n pearlyn made

but i really feel that celeste is so cool
1st she is rich
2nd her has a great sense of style
3rd she has the attitude
and its like her life seems so awesome
nobody would have believe that she is still just a sec sch student
i am not jealous of her but just kinda admire the lifestyle
but i am really curious at how her parents feels bout her partying life
seems as if her parents dosent mind a teeny bit at all
if it was my mum
she would had chase me wif the chopper

Dad called me just now and told me he bought this super exp stuff
it is a gold necklace wif a pendant made of sapphire
he says he wants me to be able to keep the gift foreva
i am really glad to receive such a gift
but on the other hand i felt quite erm...guilty?
its like: hello dad. u r now jobless agn so why are you spending big bucks on such uneccessary stuffs?! i noe u love me lots even if u didnt buy me that exp stone. i feel so bad to make you spent so much=.=
haiz...
if only my family was like was it used to be
well God if things happen for a reason, i pray all this happen for a good cause

went to work at chinatown today
its so seng lang(very free) ther loz
not like bugis
keep having need to serve customer
at chinatown, mostly is all foreigners
and u don have to perform sales talk on em
if they wanna but dey will just buy if dey don they will just c c and walk off
and its like i can sit down if i wan oso
there is not much fear of theft anyway
at 1st i thought it would be much tougher to work in chinatown
didnt expect it to be so much easier
guess i could look forward to my next 4 days working ther
lolx...

freaking shit
JM jux msg me say actuali berries wan hire me de
but the boss misunderstand that i cant work on sunday tt why
what i meant was i have church service on sun but i can still work aft tt
the most i b late for a hr but my church is only 1 mrt stop fr bugis loz
guess she didnt get what i meant
haiz...
nvm la
if i had work at berries, i wouldnt have the chance to work at queentown(which is so fun) le
what done is done
no use crying over spilled milk
lolz...
when did i become so profound

kkz la
quite tired le
blog another day den
tata^.^

2006-12-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

right now i am so filled with mixed emotions
feel so lost yet so touched

yesterday i send testi to all my secondary school friends saying i miss them so much
then CandiceChew and GohPanYing return me back one
Can testi almost made me cry
maybe because it is a video of a song by vitamin c, graduation(friends forever)
i was so touched esp by the lyrics(T.T)

had supper with my Dad jux now before reaching home
he told me some of the lessons he had learn thru his life experiences
all this set me into deep thoughts
it made me feel that though money is not everything but it still plays a very important part in our lives
now i'm so confused as to what to do in the future
planning ahead is a very impt procedure to survive
but i just don know how to do that
i want to be sucessful
however the cold blooded society got me all messed up
it redefines the meaning of money and increase its importance in greedy human's brain
haiz...
my mind is so bloated with all these L-I-F-E thoughts
i just don get the meaning of life

anyway jon msg me out of the sudden
it happened just the past 2 days
i guess my hidden grudges for him had been erased
mayb i finally see the light that grudges are not any teeny bit beneficial to me
anyway after messaging him for awhile we were just like old pals
no hatred or any bad feeling for each other
yup...somehow i got some doubts that had been torturing my brain killed

now, i just want to earn money and do stuffs that i like

2006-11-29T11:49:00.000+08:00

i am so freaking bored..!!!
i tot life would be better after the o's
never expect it to be even worst
now my days are like ' what am i gonna do next? '
all the shitty things i was thinking to do during my o's are like not coming true
wanted to learn piano or violin or mayb take up japanese classes but short of $$$
argh...
thought of going to library read up some astrology or japanese stuffs
but i am just so lazy

right now having a part time job
have to stand all day long, killing my poor feet, but hopefully it helps to slim my chunky calves
JM got another full time job which we went and find together
i didnt get it
JM say maybe because my hair got dye then look like ah lian that why the person don want to hire me(T.T)
so unfair...
nvm, its their loss not to hire me
i'm a good talker kkz...
but at least this part time job is not bad
though have to stand long hours
but the people there are very friendly
one thing i don like is that we have to be super thick skinned and die die must persuade the customer to buy our stuffs
i am still shy at times de kkz...

gonna go cwp with MindyChang to find job later
and i need to find newspaper for jobs also
gosh...never knew it is so damn difficult to find a good job
GOd please help me
hopefully i can find a good job

my 1st pair of pink sandles...are they consider sandles(o.O)?

one of my oldest slippers...
now its hard to find converse carpet slippers esp. my raindow ones=P

kkz...i think i'm kinda nuts to put out my shoes for display...couldnt help it though

2006-11-17T21:39:00.000+08:00

woah...
i managed to survive without blogging during my o's period
its such a miracle

anyway o's is finally over...
nt sure if i shud b happy or what
jux feel kind of lost...
during the o's, i kept thinking bout what i'm gonna do after the o's have end.
now that it had really end, i dont know what to do.

sum1 didn contact me throughout the o's
now that it had end sum1 still haven done so
well i guess i just have to move on
if i really meant something to sum1 surely sum1 would have contact me...
nvm...i still got my friends

i hope my results gonna come out good
or not i won be able to go the course i wan(T.T)
i kinda predict the grade i hopefully could scorce
english: B4
chinese: A2
e.maths: B3
humanities: B3
physics: A2
chemistry: A2

right now my mama is not speaking to me because i didnt go for my a.maths paper 2
she was angry i gave up on the paper
though it didn mean a great deal to me but it does for her(T.T)
i dont need a.maths as a subject to go to the course i want
and further more after going for the paper 1, i knew i was not going to do well so i might as well forget bout it and concentrate on my other subjects.
thank God i really didnt go for paper 2 cause i heard from my friends paper 2 was even more difficult than paper 1.
i also got to study for my chem by not going for a.maths paper 2

my Dad told me that he don mind me not going for paper 2
but he said that cause my mama has different thinking tt y she was mad at me.
she was probably mad i wasted her money
i guess my Dad was right
but the problem is i dont mean to keep it from her that i did not want to take paper 2.
i knew that she is gonna flare up if she know i will not take paper 2
that y i didn wanna tell her
but too bad, she still found out in the end

well...i dono what to do now but i don wish to care much bout it either
i may be going to KL to meet my Dad tml
cant wait to go out of this house
the tension is so high it's killing me
anyway i havent told my mama i going either
dont really feel like telling her.
she gonna give me the cold shoulder anyway, so what for??

right now just 1 thing on my mind
i wanna do what i like

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my 1st pair high heels bought by my mama

bought this in china,shandong. miss that place so much.
when i bought thid there it was only bout s$20
but in s'pore they are selling it like s$49.90

bought this in bugis. till now still have not wore it out even for once.

2006-10-14T17:22:00.000+08:00

mmm...quite alot of stuffs now going through my head...
don know which one to start talking bout 1st...

let talk bout the earliest incident 1st
this year was the 1st year i celebrated mid-autumn festival with my friends
though this happened like last week but cause i didnt had the time to blog it so i shall say it now
the celebration was totally fun and we played with all the candles n lighter
we even tried burning a small piece of water melon(T.T)
was quite sad when it was time to go(i stayed at GohSuZhuang's hse tt day) but i was super grateful tt there was LaiKeXin, ElsonChu, GohPanYing, chiyang and jin xian who acc me to her doorstep=>
thank you guys so much...!!!

after that i had a shower and went to bed
was chatting with SZ and msging sum1 at the same time
got to know that sum1 grandpa was admitted to hospital again
so poor thing

so the nxt day i bought this stuff dog for sum1, hoping that the dog can keep sum1 accompany when sum1 is down

next is my results
i got 17 for my L1R4 and 24 for my L1R5
though the results were not very good but i am very grateful to God cause i didnt really study much this time round
but i didnt tell my mom my results yet because i know she is sure to nag me

yesterday was my graduation day
i felt that it was a super weird day
had lots of mixed feelings

firstly i was nt allowed to sit with my class as i had to sit at the corner for the prize winners
i got the CHR gold award which i really didnt want to go up and receive cause its like so super embarassing(T.T)
after that came the speeches from the representatives of every class
when it come to the part of speeches from the form teachers from every class, my mixed feelings came in

ms chee(my form teacher) made a powerpoint presentation for us
i couldnt read what she wrote as i was wearing pin chun's spects and not mine then
so i asked PY to read to me
halfway reading, PY started crying so i asked yan qin read for me
then halfway reading yan qin went silent
so i was like "eh, i think i better just shut up, sit back and see what i can see myself"
after the powerpoint, ms chee went up on stage and in the middle of her speech, she broke down
i almost cried when i heard her voice breaking(its so touching!)
but i didnt
i hold back my tears
i was thinking its suppose to be a joyful event and that what ms chee said was from her bottom of her heart so i should be happy to hear how much we mean to her.
that day was also the 1st time i saw KX cry

but i thought that the celebration was a little inappropriate to be on that day cause its like we will be seeing each other on monday again(T.T)
and o's are not yet over either...

but nevertheless, that day was sure a day to remember...
i know i will miss ms chee too when i leave the school...

after the celebration, i rushed home, got changed and went to celebrate jin xian's birthday.
had a wonderful time ther

right now i feel really weird
don know why either...
maybe because of the studies pressure

how i wish i have $$ now
there is like so much stuff i want to buy
in the afternoon i went penisular with CandiceChew and EdmundHow and in less den 30mins, can and i were broke
we spent the $$ buying t-shirts
but the t-shirts there were so freaking nice
i want got back buy again..!!
and there is this jacket from IP Zone i liked so much..!!
but sadly, i am in need of cash=(

2006-10-08T10:16:00.000+08:00

Dusty died early this morn...
so poor thing...though i never really took care of her much,
but such a small cutie thing die, it just saddens me(T.T)
she had twisted her one of her hind leg and had difficulty walking. The way she walks was too painful for me to watch...And dont know what happned to her eyes, she became blinded. There was something like glue sticking her eyelids together, causing her unable to open her eyes. But i think i should be glad all her sufferings had finally ended. These are some last shots of her. May the peace of God be always with her.

Below are just some shots which i took while i was bored. i rali had nth beta to do(T.T)

i finally saw sum1 yesterday. Miss sum1 so badly and finally i get to see sum1. i think i almost got sum1 into a scolding as we were out too long and sum1 parents got mad when they didn see sum1 when they got home. But thank goodness nothing really happened. i actuali bought a stuff toy for sum1 but sum1 couldnt bring home as sum1 lied to sum1 mom that sum1 went out to get batteries so sum1 couldnt possibly bring the stuff toy home out of the sudden. so i had to bring it home and pass sum1 the next time. haiz...actually bought the stuff toy so that when sum1 feels sad or whatever, there is at least something sum1 can rely for comfort. But sum1 even said sum1 could not accept such a exp gift. Sometimes i really wish i can tear my heart out for sum1 to see and understand.

2006-10-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

another boring day...
a.maths lesson was alright
i was arranged to sit beside LinaYap and i guess it was a blessing
she is very patience and she helped me understand all the craps mr.R was teaching

and 1 good thing was we did not have to stay back every school day till 6pm like what mr.R force us to do, thanks to our new timetable...
the new timetable kind of disrupted his plans

went to 77 st to collect my new cap after school
saw KaiXin(my pri. sch super best pal) in the shop
i think she saw me but mayb couldnt really confirm if she knows me
and i didn say hi to her either
the feeling is so damn weird...

in the past i always wished i would run into her and then the both of us will talk to each other and rekindle the past
what i thought was so different from what happened 2day...
i couldnt bring myself to say hi to her
and thus the weird feeling

anyway i dont really feel super sad or what
afterall i got lots of great pals right now like CandiceChew, EdmundHow, LaiKeXin, LaiZhaoXiu, GohPanYing, GohSuZhuang,etc..
no pain no gain rite..?
so mayb i had to lose my past buddy to have what i have today
maybe its all part of GOD's plans...

anyway, as promised, below are the 2 videos i took when EdmundHow and LaiZhaoXiu came to my hse for dinner the other time. 1 is bout how xiu drank the soup we 'specially' made and the other was how we played with candles:

2006-10-01T09:44:00.000+08:00

today will be another long posts
couldnt update yesterday due to internet errors so i was not able to use the net

EdmundHow and LaiZhaoXiu came to my house area yesterday to have dinner with me
we ate chicken rice and in the mist we made a fool of ourselves:

look at all the fats i took away. wonder how much exercise i'll have to do if i had eaten all of em=P

we were able to wipe the plate clean by playing games with the left over. we played 'er ling wu'(two zero five) and the odd 1 out had to eat the meat we asked him/her to.

the meat went out but our gaming mood were still on so we specially made our own soup and the loser had to drink it. lemon n dark sauce are added inside. i noe we are super gross=P

Xiu cant seem to erase tt tonic soup taste in her mouth despite gulping down lemon tea

after dinner, we bought candles and lighter to play:

we created a circle and made a heart in the middle. my phone was nt able to really capture the pic well as there was to much glare from the flames

does it look like an eyeball...?

alright...finally 1 better shot of the whole thing. aint we creative? hahxhahx. the real thing was even more beautiful. too bad CandiceChew was not with us. she missed out the fun=(

i used the remaining candles to try create my letter G. i admit it does not look like one=P

back home, my mom made me eat this whole big pear.
imagine the torture i went finishing it

i still got two videos bout yesterday
i'll put it up later mayb...

right now my sore throat is so much better
but i still feel very weak
my head feels heavy and i feel aches all over me
i think i'm really falling sick

how am i to finish all my work in this condition..?!

i miss sum1 so much
how i wish sum1 was right here with me now
i'm sure i would had felt better

but nevermind...
he said i'll be able to go to his house after 12oct
i shall wait till then...

2006-09-30T15:17:00.000+08:00

now my throat hurts like shit
and its so pissing me off...!!

haiz...
i miss sum1 so so much
i feel so miserable
about 2 weeks since i last saw him...

right now everything seems so gloomy
probably because of the weather
the sky looks like its gonna break soon
shud actually be goin out to cwp with can to get my cap
but just don feel like going anywhere today
and i don feel like doing anything now too
just wanna slack the whole day
but i know i cant
cause there are tons of homework waiting for me to do
haiz...
maybe i'll do it after i rest awhile..

what a boring day...

2006-09-29T20:34:00.000+08:00

freaking shit...
now having sore throat
and its so freaking irritating
make me cant sing(T.T)

didnt go to school today
just couldnt get up
i was so so exhausted
but had to lie to mom that there wasnt school today
and now i feel quite bad bout it

but anyway i still went to school in the afternoon for the after school extra maths enrichment
mr.R gave us do 3 graph questions and a construction question
while doing i was so freaking irritated
mr.R kept complaining about our mistakes and i was like cant you just shut up and let us finish doing peacefully before you complain...?!
but obviously i didnt say that out...
he was so so irritating today

after that went running with CandiceChew, EdmundHow and GohSuZhuang and LaiZhaoXiu
but LaiZhaoXiu didnt run
she just helped us look after our bags
my running had deproved(T___T)
i managed to run 2.4km in 14mins+ for my NAPFA but today i run only 2.2km and i already took 15mins+
hopefully it is due to my sore throat that why i slowed down cause i had difficulties breathing properly

just went friendster awhile ago and saw Z newly updated photo...
he look so so cute
too bad different school sia
but he will still be the cutie dream guy in my heart

and another photo that caught my attention was this:

its C new updated photo
i was quite grossed up by it
but i really envy his gf
i am so weird all of a sudden

kkz...enough of that
its shoes update again(^____^):

my 1st pair of nike shoes. its oso my most expensive pair of shoes. bought by my beloved dad(muackz). anyway i made use of it well. i even climbed mt.kinabalu with it. but i think age caught up with it(laughs), the shoe is starting to get worn out and its cushion are slowly coming off...

my japanese look alike slippers. dont it look cute..? hahxhahx..i remember someone told me that it looks a bit like 'fan tong'(rice container) used by japenese people. but i only worn it a few times. couldnt really find the occasion to wear it and its a little hard to match with. it looks quite worned out thanks to my mother who didnt took care of it when she wore it(T.T)

another one of my favourites..! partly because of its orange colour=> this pair had been with me for super long. i think its the oldest among my shoes. i had it when i was still in my primary school. it used to be my mom but since both our feet were about the same size so i wore it. and now it became mine=P mine was actually rainbow coloured which is now wore by my mom.

this pair was my mom. i actually wanted to borrow from her but look at the condition she cause the high heels to be, i guess i will just have to forget it. but i really like the bling bling on it(bling bling rules=P)

this is also my mom's. i'm gonna steal fr her . heh heh

2006-09-28T19:09:00.000+08:00

today was a tiring day...
our maths teacher made us stayed back till 5.15pm
and i was like half asleep in his class already
imagine having to go thru this till the o's
i wonder how i'm going to survive

but i think it was a little too much of mr.R to made us stay back everyday till so late...
its like we cant really absorbed much during his lesson as we are all already so so so drained out
and we also got other subjects to study too
its not as if we are only taking maths for our o's

how i wish i could tell him off like that

i msg my dad happy birthday yesterday with a photo of me and my brother
and he only replied me today
but the msg he sent to me was so adorable
there was an animation of a piggy shaking his butt
my dad said it was his joy dance when he received my msg
aint my dad humourous..?
hahxhahx
miss him so so so much

anw i got back my geo and i flunk it=(
but at least my physics mcQ was not bad
Thank God for his mercy upon me

2006-09-28T02:43:00.000+08:00

its pretty late now...
already 2 am in the morn but i still have not sleep
very bad girl
HahxHahx...=P

suddenly felt like blogging because i forget to talk bout my results
well...
so far still alright...
as expected, i flunk my a.maths
then my e.maths improved by 1 grade(from b4 to b3 i think)
and to my surprise, i actually improved my physics too.!!
i thought i would just get a borderline passing grade but it turn up to be a b3
so i improved by 1 grade also
and this was the 1st time i got above 30 for my MCQ section
i got 35/40
and i thought i would only get 20+ because that day after the paper, i discuss the ans with my friends and it was like i got so many diff ans from em and i thought i was gone because this means i should be having lots of mistakes...
so it was really a huge suprise when i got my results=>
(i'm freaking relieved and happy)

my chinese got b3
no improvement but thank God no degradtion either
then i only got back my chem McQ section
i was again shocked by my results
i got 30/40
this is the 1st time i ever hit 30 marks again...
in the past i always only manage to get 20+ also
and when i did this paper it was in a hurry because i had to rush thru 20 questions in round bout 10mins time
so i was really again surprise by my results
right now i'm very worried my paper 2 will pull me down so much that i cant even pass
hopefully not though.....

my english got 29/50
the same marks as mid-yr
but i should glad i didnt fail or deprove
i think if possible i hope to get at least a b4 for my english

but no matter what, i shud thank GOD
guess he was really with me through that prelim period

2006-09-27T18:01:00.000+08:00

today post will be super long as i was not able to update bout my jurong island's trip yesterday

in the bus journey...
LimJieNing, CandiceChew and LaiZhaoXiu fooling around and was caught in action by me
KeKex...=p

a pic of my LaiKeXin and ElsonChu
dont know what they doing but they seem so happy(*o*)

stopover.
we were suppose to get down the bus to register ourselves and to be spotcheck
the security became super strict after the 9/11 incident

if u are able to see, there is actually a huge cargo ship behind the trees

another cargo ship
i wonder how all the people were able to build such huge ships...

i dont know what this statue or model is for but it looks interesting so i just took a pic of it

see all the complicated oil tanks or whatever...
though they look small but they are actually very very big
i think 5times the size of a normal bus...
i never knew human inventions were so great....(T.T)

some huge oil tanks
they really are super big

this two pic above are my favorites because the scenery was so beautiful
it looks more like a resort island rather than an industry

tt building looks so much like a giant cigar.hahxhahx

this is another huge oil tank...
it is so big i couldnt fix it into my camera's lens

u would never had thought that an industrial estate would have a park of its own
but anyway their park was really nice
there was alot of different type of plants from different countries
their park looks like another plant museum...

i dont know how i got this pic but it shows an overview of only one part of the estate
so u could imagine how big jurong island was
but though they have got lots of buildings and companies,
i'm surprise i did not see a lot of workers running about...
it seems as if the whole estate run about itself...
scary huh??
hahxhahx=P

this pic was taken when we finally reached back school...
just though it was a pretty scene...

this jurong island's trip was a super dooper fun trip
though i did not really learn a lot of stuff
but i got to see lots of interesting things
and boy was i amazed by them
for e.g the huge oil tanks...
i bet i tank can drown up to over 100 of people...
hahxhahx=P

we also get to visit this chemistry gallery, which was like an exhibition hall..
the gallery was super cool..!!
all the exhibitions were so well done and were made so interesting
but 2 bad we were not really given time to look at all of them...
so sad...
but i truely enjoyed myself alot=>
i never knew bout all the complicating stuffs goning on ther
i am greatly amazed by human's invention

2006-09-26T10:12:00.000+08:00

i dreamt bout L again
i guess i still cant get over him
argh...!!!
but cant blame me, afterall we didnt officially...
haiz...i hate my indecisive personality

anw more shoes updates below
( i nv stop loving shoes=P )
Kekex...

my 1st adidas shoes
and also most favorite.
my dad bought it for me
and it has been with me for quite long
at least 2 years i think
but i must say i really took care of this shoes
it is one of the cleanest pair i have
and it is consider not bad that it is still this clean after being with me so long=P

my bling bling sandals

my kappa school shoes.!!!

my most stinkiest n antique pair of shoes
c the ZAG on one of it
i wrote that when i still like Z then

my 1st high heels(or shud i call it short heels?)

i oni took one shoe out of the pair because the other look different from this.
the other one does not have the pearls in front as they had dropped off
(i didn pull it)

2006-09-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

just awhile ago i was feeling angry
den rite now i've gt mixed feelings in me...
i'm so so weird

C tok 2 me on MSN just now
its like so weird loz...
its been so long since we both chat and suddenly he just come and talk to me
such a weird weird feeling

anyway i know things are different now le...
got to noe he gt a gf oso
think i shud be hapi for him??
but i think i should be glad at least our relationship can last so long
i dono...but anyway he talking to me does not really mean much...
so i guess i just need to put tis aside
afterall tt some1 is more than enough to drive me up the walls
i don need another person to drive me insane any further

2006-09-25T22:50:00.000+08:00

i'm so freaking pissed off

was actuali doin my work n i had so much of motivation until my irritating mom came home
she just spoil my whole working mood

she enter the hse with such a loud entrance
throw her stuff and started making a din
gone was my concentration the instance she opens her mouth
then she switch on the tv and started to watch her tv

i just don get her
she wans me to do well in my studies and she always nag at me for not doing any productive study at all but yet when i'm studying she just disturbs me
what the freaking heck does she wan

i don understand why ther is such parents wher dey do things to make their child not to study!!
i feel rali so so damned pissed
i wanted to do so much 2day but rite now the whole mood is just gone
how i wish i have a dummy for me to hit and vent my anger rite now

and i rali feel like shouting at my mom!!!
she even snatch tv from me to watch her vcds
how selfish can she be!!!
why cant she let me watch.?!
aftall hers is vcds which she can watch other time but mine is the tv program
once i missed it i missed it
SHITO!!!

2006-09-25T16:51:00.000+08:00

kkz...today was a pretty bad day...
its suppose to be the checking of scripts day but i oni saw my 3 sub papers.!
the teachers dono give what stupid excuse that dey were told not to give us yet as there is modification to b done
and this means that we had done quite badly i guess
or not why is there a need for modification(o.O)?

well..anw as expected, i flunk my a.maths
but i think i did better than the last time though i oni improve by a few marks,
quite happy with my e.maths results
though i didn get an A1 but at least i improved=P
hope i'll b able to understand fully my a.maths b4 the o's and do well in it

anw i know i still have alot work to do to get around 13 for my o's
i know very well i'll be getting near 30 for tis prelims..
but i don really mind very much since i'm not going to JC
going to JC is equivalent to frying my brains alive
LoLx

btw sum1 msg me a gd nite msg last nite
and i was so freaking shocked and delighted to recieve it..
it seems like for the 1st time he is taking the initiative

i couldnt go 2 slp last nite so i took some pics of my shoes as a memory
(don wish 4 em to be thrown away when they are spoilt just lidat)
ppl say that shoes are 1 of the things girls nv complain bout having enough
and i totally agree bout it
i just cant stop buying new shoes despite the fact i had more than i need=P

tis pair is one of my favourites partly becoz it is orange in colour. it looks kinda like the converse pattern but it is so much cheaper than converse's

bling bling!!

2006-09-24T19:51:00.000+08:00

finally i've got my own blog

i'm not sure if i'm gonna write every personal stuff bout me here...after all blogs do get ppl in trouble somehow...so i guess i will still leave my very very personal stuff in MDD...

ytd i was waiting for sum1's msg and i suddenly realised how anxiously i was waiting for his msg...whenever my phone rings and it wasnt him i will feel the disappointment in me...

what's disappointing was
he nv automatically msg me 1st for once
unless it is 2 confirm bout stuffs

i'm getting sick of always being the 1 who will contact him 1st

anw i'm getting back my prelim results tml...
hope it is nt as bad as i predict it to be...
i guess i rali have to work doubly hard...
i don wana lose to Jon...if i win him i'll b able to shut him up
kexkex...=P

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